nothing is worth if you dont apc

i went to the library today..
1 hour 4 me 2 relax and i choose to listen 2 songs...
1 song composed by JJ lin for the SI chuan's victims to that they can stand up strong..
meanwhile, i click on a website that i use to surf for the picture's...
trust me....im that kind of person who dont cry...
my family members mark me as reptile family..
im nt fear of dead body..
not insect..
nothing.....
except worm i admit...
but 2day....
in the public...
my eyes did really wet not by my tears but the pain that the ppl in si chuan are facing..
some how...i just feel they are so helpless....
it just came in a minute and everthing just went off that way...
1 news i read in the news paper..
it goes like this....

teacher ask the class to write about their mother as mother's day just passed...
they found 1 bag...and there's 1 essay belong to the deceased....a little girl who supose to have bright future who is now just beside the god....

" mymom is a person who has the disability to speak and to hear...
she will never fail to do the housework...
she will never dissapoint me no matter how...
i still rmr...when i was young n its time to learn...
she save all the money which my dad gave her "mydad earn just enuf 4 the family but ntg else"
she fast for a few weeks just 2 buy a video player and some CD for me to learn my kiddy song n others...
she will try her best to give me the best as the god dot give her the best..
until a few years ago...
my dad passed away because of an accident....
i rmr mymom cried loudly with the sound "wa wa" as she cnt speak..
4m the way she hug me..i know she 12 tell me..im the only person that she can rely on...
she can have hopes on...
as a person who is not perfect physically..
she has no choice but to work outside...
nomatter how ppl laugh at her...
no matter how tough is the work...
still she work day and night just to provide me the best thing...
what i can do is work hard in my studies to tell her i love her...
i will make sure i give her the best life when im grown up..

i love my mom...

lee ling~~

and buddies....
this brilliant girl has passed away...
now what the mother left is a world that hopeless and meaningless to her..
o more things for her 2 rely on..
no more things that worth for her to work hard.
what is the meaning?
who can undrstand what she feel?
money and property cant satisfy her anymore..
i guess in her heart..
she will just wish end her life n join the rest of her family in a very far place...

sometimes...
i really duno what to do just 2 tell mymom i love her...
but i know now...
treat her good everyday *im doing*
just to let her feel she is exist and she is loved by us...
i do admit im not often with her due to my studies and my social life...
but i did try my best 2 share my stories with her when mymom n me sit 2gather...
she feels the joy when we the youngster do willing to share with her...
dun feel guilty...
its not late..
nid not 2 do so much...
a little thing will do...
mom will not count much all though she has given us all her time...
so dont count of ur 60seconds..
thats ntg compare to what she has given...

just apc watever u have...

i just hope i can lend a hand...
i hope i can grad early...
so that im certified to help....
i dont 12 apply autopsy...
i just 12 see a body which is alive....

*dun cry dun cry*

hahahahahaha