nothing is worth if you dont apc

i went to the library today..
1 hour 4 me 2 relax and i choose to listen 2 songs...
1 song composed by JJ lin for the SI chuan's victims to that they can stand up strong..
meanwhile, i click on a website that i use to surf for the picture's...
trust me....im that kind of person who dont cry...
my family members mark me as reptile family..
im nt fear of dead body..
not insect..
nothing.....
except worm i admit...
but 2day....
in the public...
my eyes did really wet not by my tears but the pain that the ppl in si chuan are facing..
some how...i just feel they are so helpless....
it just came in a minute and everthing just went off that way...
1 news i read in the news paper..
it goes like this....

teacher ask the class to write about their mother as mother's day just passed...
they found 1 bag...and there's 1 essay belong to the deceased....a little girl who supose to have bright future who is now just beside the god....

" mymom is a person who has the disability to speak and to hear...
she will never fail to do the housework...
she will never dissapoint me no matter how...
i still rmr...when i was young n its time to learn...
she save all the money which my dad gave her "mydad earn just enuf 4 the family but ntg else"
she fast for a few weeks just 2 buy a video player and some CD for me to learn my kiddy song n others...
she will try her best to give me the best as the god dot give her the best..
until a few years ago...
my dad passed away because of an accident....
i rmr mymom cried loudly with the sound "wa wa" as she cnt speak..
4m the way she hug me..i know she 12 tell me..im the only person that she can rely on...
she can have hopes on...
as a person who is not perfect physically..
she has no choice but to work outside...
nomatter how ppl laugh at her...
no matter how tough is the work...
still she work day and night just to provide me the best thing...
what i can do is work hard in my studies to tell her i love her...
i will make sure i give her the best life when im grown up..

i love my mom...

lee ling~~

and buddies....
this brilliant girl has passed away...
now what the mother left is a world that hopeless and meaningless to her..
o more things for her 2 rely on..
no more things that worth for her to work hard.
what is the meaning?
who can undrstand what she feel?
money and property cant satisfy her anymore..
i guess in her heart..
she will just wish end her life n join the rest of her family in a very far place...

sometimes...
i really duno what to do just 2 tell mymom i love her...
but i know now...
treat her good everyday *im doing*
just to let her feel she is exist and she is loved by us...
i do admit im not often with her due to my studies and my social life...
but i did try my best 2 share my stories with her when mymom n me sit 2gather...
she feels the joy when we the youngster do willing to share with her...
dun feel guilty...
its not late..
nid not 2 do so much...
a little thing will do...
mom will not count much all though she has given us all her time...
so dont count of ur 60seconds..
thats ntg compare to what she has given...

just apc watever u have...

i just hope i can lend a hand...
i hope i can grad early...
so that im certified to help....
i dont 12 apply autopsy...
i just 12 see a body which is alive....

*dun cry dun cry*

hahahahahaha

earth maybe not show love..but we the human being do.

just listen 2 many ppl's love life..
sometimes i do feel...love is something complicated.
what is love?
i think non of us here will interpret it in the best way.
this morning i read 1 of the news about SI chuan's earth quake..
that is..thats a girl who lost her pair of leg due to the earth quake...
from the picture i know..she suffered and she feel meaningless to be alive in this world..
but she stand up strong after her boy fren who promise her that he will marry her no matter how...
and sadly..
they were dating when earthquake happened..
just so unlucky that the wall fall down on her...
another case is...
the girl friend got trapped in the dump...
and she has lost her interest to b alive..
i think maybe due to her injury...
but her BF...
stay beside her n say
" will u marry me?"
answer me..
he repeated this for so many times...
and the girl gt rescued..
omg....
i feel so touched!!!
another news..
n this is the only news that really made my eyes wet...
a mother and her baby gt trapped in the dump...
they were waiting for rescue ..
but it just limited air and food for them...
the mother cant stand that long...
n she knew her time is there..
she took up her cloth n breast feed her baby b4 she gasp her last breath..
when the rescuer found them..
the baby is stil sucking the mother's nipple...while the mother is dead..
argh...
until the last minute..
a mother still think of her child when she know she cant make it already..
haiz....sigh...
why god want to take her life?
i really dont understand.
why there are so many of bad ppl why not them?
haiz!!!
while im blogging....
i saw alot of fren's pm wrote there is earthquake in Kl..
so i asked another fren..
she told me that sumatera had earthquake...
omg...
haiz............................

sometime i wonder..the 1 who being love or the 1 who love another person will be more happy?
i duno.
is it the 1 who mend back in the arguement put more effort in the relationship?-A
the 1 who owys being "tam" back dont put much effort in the relationship?-B
if 1 day A meet someone who really willing to do so so much for A , will A go for the person? or A will still stay for B?
complicated mind i have?
its reality...
if A really fall in love with the person..should B blame A for not being loyal?
who can give this answer? tell me!!!!

just express anger

im a news pape regular reader..
gosh..i saw all the basic need of human are now announced 2 be shortage..
i reli dun understand...
why inflation will happen....
now life is already consider suffer..
i mean to av1....
no av1 is rich... not 1av is affordable for expensive food...
why the administrative of the country still increasing all the prices?
we do have the big big paddy farm...
whenever i go kedah sure i will go n have a look with that s i feel its so relax 2 look at green..
its is so so so sos os so so big..
n s i know....
the weather of our country is the best 4 the plant...
n why shortage???
why?
why avtime action only will be taken when thr's death?
when the issue is being serious?
why?
why the money is being used to other places but nt on places that can bring down the burden that is on all the citizen?
what can we do s a citizen?
shut up n blog?
just discuss it with the fren around?
argh...
i really dun feel satisfy..
why must we shut up n just accept what ever they decided?
why we cant stand u n say no?
y saying no is fault?
y telling my feelings is wrong?
u can dun take it serious..
im just expressing my anger...
u care bcz i touch ur tail man....
why we have 2 bear with all the consequnce?
u knw why thr r so many crime?
bcz they cant afford 2 get wat they want...
really sometime is the force that set by the environment..
although i reli hate thme by hurting the innocent ..
but what the choice?
who is the real criminal?
who is the real person who set up all this?
i guess u guys will knw
money we pay alot alot alt...
but end up dun use it on us...
v seldom get the benefit....
really..
roads are full of holes....
service by dos servant r slow and rude...
why must we pay them?